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Was reading Xiaxue's pregnancy post (!!! still cannot get over it omg) and just... aweofiuapwuf wow. Idk maybe it's because it's XX and I've been reading her blog and everything for so many years now and I really actually quite like her (and also I saw her irl that day hehehehe I SAW HER WHEN SHE WAS PREGNANT :O) and yeah, reading her views and updates on it just makes it feel so real.

Also I cannot imagine puking/dry-heaving 40 times a day wtf wtf wtf seriously reconsidering ever getting pregnant lol I hate vomiting I do it enough on planes already. And also I don't want to get fat and not be able to see my feet I'll probably fall down everywhere. And stretch marks and must go on diet after that and THE PAIN!!!! Plus I absolutely. cannot. freaking. stand. kids making noise zzz doesn't matter if it's some three-month-old baby that's crying or a five year old boy screaming his head off or kids banging their cutlery or whatever annoying thing they do on the table I just want to slap them and ask them to shut up <_< plus I don't actually like babies. I only like toddlers who can talk and respond properly but even still only until they're 5 or 6 because they get irritating and rebellious when they reach primary school.

Oh well I haven't even taken A levels so............ long way to go LOL.

And also weddings are pretty and I cannot wait to shop for my wedding dress and plan my wedding and yes I am very girly and immature (marriage is a life-changing decision! Not just for you to look pretty!!) + now that things are changing and/or I am growing up I have realised that I might be an absolute sucker for romance and cheesy nonsense, but I am also a realist at heart and seriously, how do you be absolutely positive that this is the person you want to spend the rest of your life? How can you be so sure that you have met The One and there isn't your true blue soulmate out there??? But still —



what's not to like? *__*
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So yuppp stayed over at Jieshi's with Debo & Dory to watch the Euro Finals between Spain and Germany :>

Crazy fun consisting of cooking cup noodles in a pot (LOL) with failed 蛋花, falling asleep during the lion city match because it was super weird and boring, crawling up to watch highlights in an attempt to catch a glimpse of my müller bb :3 also yes I installed German on my computer just so I could type the ü -_- le sigh

2 goals within first half (Silva 14', Jordi Alba 41') and omg Spain was on fire idek what else to say :') super proud to have supported them to prove everyone wrong :) + taking revenge for Germany heh heh heh even Gomez was on their side :D Casillas doing lots of awesome saves aoiufpauwe my hero :') Torres 84', Mata 88' ("Torres told me he saw me and passed the ball because it was me" cries all over the place)! Balotelli being a bitch after losing /eyeroll ~_~ #respect for Buffon though :) :) 

Post-match celebration wherein all 4 of us were jelly because we were unable to bounce up and down with the NT hahahahaha . Oh and fights over who belonged to who during the awards ceremony (giant smile on Casillas' face :>)

Debo: Noooo why didn’t they film Fabregas receiving his medal!!! Oh well he’ll show it to me at home anyway ;)
Jieshi: If Fabregas is yours then who is mine :(
Debo: You can have Casillas!
Me: NO Casillas is mine!!!
Everyone else: YOU ALREADY HAVE MÜLLER!!!
Me: i don’t care i want both!!!
Jieshi: D: I have no one
Me: You can have Balotelli :)
Jieshi: T_______T
(20 minutes later as we attempt to sleep)
Debo: ...I can’t decide if I want Fabregas or Casillas D:

Everyone going crazy and doing random stuff like calling up Leon and Zhihao and demanding for Fabregas/pretending to be Fabregas/talking nonsense idek what was going on anymore -_-



:')))))

Attempts to find my Thomas bb's NT jersey failed WHY NO WOMEN'S SIZES HUH GENDER DISCRIMINATION :( owellz Queensway another time

And I want his Bayern jersey too :((((
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But seriously why can't I just be content with how things are and god I don't know I just disgust myself sometimes.
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always thankful for having the greatest friends ♥ especially especially chong jie shi, sean teh, sheryl lee, quek yew kit and lester lim :)

also, happy birthday to one of my oldest friends \o/ 8 years and counting!!
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WHY DO I EVEN CARE UGH AWOEFUOPWAEUFOWAIUFOWUAIEFUAWOEPFIUWAUEFUWA
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Post promos life is the best I swear \o/ wading (okay it's not as painful as it sounds LOL, I'm just like ugh I have 1 and a half more seasons to go sigh) through TVD and continuing my B1A4 craze :) :) :)

Went with Jieshi today to crash VJ and visit Joey + Athena + Zhenting :D fun fun fun fun hahaha ("Eh why everyone staring at us is it cause we're too pretty") and Ting's horrified face when I told her about _____ was more epic than expected LOL. Plus sorta learned how to play floorball! :D

~

Some, but not all, of the reasons why I am in love with Jung Jinyoung:
  • good-looking
  • skinny
  • can play the guitar
  • he composed Bling Girl I love that song sfm
  • HE COMPOSES AWOPFUEW
  • have I mentioned how adorable the lyrics (which he wrote when he had a crush on some girl) are (I confessed, telling you that you’re the only one for me and I can’t live without you / But you laughed, confused, and thought it was a joke)
  • his fail at directions (which means we'd die together sobs)
  • he put "ghosts" as both the things he hates most + is most scared of LOL (I repeat: WE'D DIE TOGETHER LOLOLOL)
  • he loves his computer as much as I love mine lmfao
  • his obsession with his hair 
  • he was vice-president of the students' council HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
  • ...still not getting over that previous bullet point LMAO
  • he can cook!
  • and make nice aglio olio lolol
  • he can imitate all sorts of ridic things like helicopters and doraemon and zooming cars HOW ADORABLE IS THAT
  • he is such a boy ugh running all over the place excitedly during missions and trying his best to finish the stupid watermelon (but dying of laughter halfway through) and pranking the entire crew and pretending to faint really realistically (HAVE I MENTIONED THAT HE ACTS!!!!!) and being all "omg oops I accidentally flashed HAHAHA" and sobs. just, sobs.
  • ^ just look at that perfection up there how could anyone not love him?!
  • (LOL yes I have this addiction to gif-ing stuff recently sobs)
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(^^ if my boyfriend looked like that while waiting for me I'd turn up late all the time and just spazz behind a pillar while watching him LOL)

Why do I hear your breathing as if it's a spell?
There's no way to avoid you, you amazing person

-- O.K (B1A4)

~

So exams are over YAY awesome party timez starts now has started already actually hehehehehehe :) had fun playing pool w Jieshi Enoch Justin Nic yaaay apparently I have potential LOL it's pretty fun :3 at least I improved from the previous time (proves that Zhihao & Sally are lousy teachers lolol).

Started watching TVD thanks to Sheryl & Sean's constant spam of gifs on tumblr and okay I admit, Ian Somerhalder is aoefupweuf hot *v* and Nina is pretty! :D

+ done with MTV Match Up LOL shall start on BANA soon~ let's fly B1A4! ^^v

Wonder how long this high is gonna last hahahahaha (until results come back maybe? :O)
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So Econs and GP papers were today!!! Screwed is an understatement for econs lmao please let me at least maintain my E :( LOL yes I lowered my expectations ugh CSQ was terrible Andy sucks D: GP was relatively okay, hopefully the essay can pull up my compre! :) ++ thanks everyone who wished me luck (Chubin Jolin Ange Yikboon etc etc etc) :D

International Hist tomorrow and here I am #nomood -_- it strangely feels like end of promos already. Though that's probably cause I've been spam-watching HD videos of B1A4 lolol Jinyoung puts me in a good mood :') I feel like the world is perfect and amazing. MAJOR CRUSH, YES. Not even joking when I say I keep grinning to myself whenever I watch their videos and he smiles awoiefuopaweuwe ;____; cries. Slowly inching up my list of biases!! Okay more like rapidly HAHA especially ever since Myungsoo went to work out -_- sorry bb but Jinyoung is pretty and skinny :( 178cm and 59kg so perfecttttttt my type :B :B :B and okay Gongchan is pretty adorable too *___* (yes I have a feeling I'm gonna ship Jinyoung/Gongchan LOL)

Okay (O.K. GO~~~!) wtf I sound like I'm on crack, must have gotten it from Sheryl ~_~

...I sound ridiculously happy for someone in the middle of exams HAHAHA

~



Alright, let’s stop crying now
Wipe away your tears now
Isn’t that much better?
You are the prettiest
Prettiest when you smile, yeah
I'll learn good words, good actions, and be like you
I'll become an amazing boyfriend, okay?

-- Only Learned Bad Things (B1A4)

P.S. ^^^^ would totally heartmeltz all over the place if anyone actually said sang that to me.
P.P.S kay but I admit it would only work if the person was half as cute as Jinyoung LOL
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  • The weirdest thing about my heart is that it falls in love in pieces
  • And it's not to say that your piece is any special
  • But it was first.
  • There are different kinds of love in this world because
  • Different people get to you in different ways, for reasons you can't explain
  • I can love you the way you love someone who's been in your life for so long
  • You cannot imagine a life without him, because he's been there
  • To grow up with you and go through a series of bittersweet first-times with you
  • And when he is walking next to you you feel something fall into place
  • Although you'd never even realised you were missing that particular piece
  • Of your heart in the first place.
  • I can love you the way you love someone who is in your mind almost
  • Every second of every day, who is nothing close to what you've always wanted,
  • But still manages to steal your heart in the most startling of ways.
  • I can love you just because
  • I do,
  • And that is that.
~

August 8, 2011
  • MapleStory w/ Jieshi throughout National Day celebrations
  • Only stopping to watch the We Are Singaporeans thing because it was legit hilarious
  • Accidentally molesting Chubin because he turned around at the wrong moment :|||
  • Lunch @ JustAcia~
  • Gossip x381041
  • Monopoly deal w/ Szekang :B
  • Shopping at giant: bread vs biscuits, chicken vs ham
  • Yufong successfully popping a cork
  • Meeting the DHS kidz after that
  • Stealing 1/3 of Sally's strawberry froyo which was surprisingly nice
  • His face when we went off without him (“Ehhhh where are you all going? :( Tell me lehhhh you all just gonna abandon me like that?”)
  • But it wasn't our fault because he wanted to mug with Isaac/Wenning/Matthew/Richmond etc until 11:30 :<
  • Watching the shops close
  • Playing with chinchillas :B
  • Getting Sally to buy drinks for us
  • "Omg omg omg omg he did it!!!!!"
  • #foreverproud of him 8)
  • More Maple + weird HK drama + 8% vodka + 4.7% breezer + totally sober self @_@ 
  • I wonder how much it will take for me to get drunk LOL
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Even now, when I look at you, my heart hurts
Even if it's just for a moment, I try hard not to let my tears fall
Don't you know that I'm smiling like a fool?
Can you and I really become friends like before?
Can we really do that?

-- Reset (Super Junior)

~

Day Five

Am I even supposed to continue counting? Because I'm alright now. Which probably isn't a good sign since I'm starting to feel more and more like some sort of crack addict - I fall to pieces whenever you don't talk to me and come back to life when you do, which means that I'm terribly dependent on you, which is probably really unhealthy. I need... rehab. Lol.

So yeah got back most of our results! Not exactly satisfied with my econs but I shouldn't be a bitch since quite a lot of people were worse off. I just... kinda expected a bit more, I guess. SEA Hist was... okay? I think my overall for history will be a D, maybe.

Celebrated Jieshi's birthday yesterday! Happy 17th dear, I'm really v thankful to have you as a friend :) :) :)

Today was kinda insane, went around in school with my sister and people kept giving us weird looks LOL Cherie actually recoiled in shock hahahaha! Anyway the squashers kinda suck at BBQ (HAHA) so we left after watching people play + chatting etc! Went to NYNY for dinner/supper! And talked a lot lah. Haha :D

Draineddd. But omg Siwan is looking so adorable lately, I guess it's a sign that I should start paying a bit more attention to fandom :B



*______*
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School is stupid I really need more than 6 hours' worth of sleep a day dammit and I am tired all the time and I am not exactly very nice when I am tired and I end up saying the wrong things but I am too tired to care or try to make things right again and I can only hope that people will forgive me and understand that I would never mean to hurt them.

Sometimes I don't really feel like myself sometimes I feel like someone else sometimes I push people away on purpose not only because I am afraid of getting hurt but because I do not want them to come too close only to be disappointed by what they find inside me. I am not whole I am broken I am fragile I have no room in my heart for anyone else and I am starting the long tedious process of forgiving and forgetting and this time round I have nothing left to give. I will not make the same mistakes again I am lonely loose listless lost I am a shell I am terrified; I want so much I don't deserve I want something I don't deserve I want to deserve to be happy.

Like I said, I need more sleep. I think. Sleep is always good.
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Soooo I've been thinking of cutting my hair :\ not short short (god knows I look tragic in short hair urgh ;___;), but shoulder-length short? Since it'll grow back anyway~



Likeee this short! Yoong-inspired short :3



And Kim Taehee 8)

So should I should I should I? :( I'm scared it'll turn out tragic ;____;

~

“I wish I had the guts to just leave and walk away from this, forgetting everything we ever had. But I know you wouldn’t come after me, and that’s what hurts the most.”
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Tired of moodswinging. Tired of being sad then happy then sad then angry then hurt then not knowing what to feel anymore. Tired of caring when I said I wouldn't, trying when I said I wouldn't. Tired of that sense of guilt and helplessness when you don't know how to cheer people up. Tired of my friends being upset because they really, really deserve to be happy. Tired of school. Tired of homework. Tired of not knowing what is going through your mind. Tired of you. Tired of love. Tired of not knowing if I'm doing the right thing. Tired of knowing that I'd do it anyway even if I knew it was the wrong decision to make. Tired of wondering. Tired of feeling like a horrible person in general. Tired of exhaustion that has nothing to do with the amount of time I sleep. Tired of being scared all the damn time. Tired of my insecurities. Tired of myself. Tired of life in general, and I just really need a break :|
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Funny how a simple good night text can make me :) instantly. Four days felt like eternity, just so you know.

Sometimes things fall apart so better ones can fall together. You know who you are, stay strong and keep your head up okay we all know you've done your best :D :D :D
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I get a feeling that you’ll leave me
You keep giving me all these excuses
Your cold "bye bye" that felt different from before

I cannot let you go
-- Intuition (C.N.Blue)

~

So I'm totally hooked onto Intuition rn. It grows on you, honestly :) and I can totally relate to the lyrics, I guess. Must force Ja to perform this for me one day hehehehe.



Adorable drummer boy is adorable ♥ 

Also, I solemnly swear I will go swimming + cycling more often :) must get off my lazy ass lolol. Learned Soshi's Womanizer choreo yay ^^
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Still in Tianjin! Having a lot of fun, especially when we get back to the hostel yay \o/ Yufong broke Szewei's bed and Yingzhen broke it again. Daebak~ But he managed to get it changed LOL.

Oh, had a ~talk~ with Szewei, which made me realise that I've actually dissed a lot of guys before I actually got to know them properly lmao. I need to stop comparing every guy with ____ gdi, it's always gonna be a sure lose. So I'm hoping I'll meet a sure win soon kekeke :) Jfc I wish you would stop screwing with my heart :( I refuse to believe I have a tiny miniature so-small-it-doesn't-even-really-count crush on the one guy I swore I would never fall for.
Okay gonna go sleep now ;_____; 
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Would it be completely ridiculous to think that this boy is my soulmate? ;____; no seriously, I don't mean that in the I-want-to-marry-him way because I don't actually want to marry him, lol. He is nothing like my ideal type because he is too much like me, if you get what I mean :| we'd drive each other insane lmao! ~_~ so in an utterly non-creepy way... I do actually think that we are (creepily) similar :\ which is a very weird feeling indeed.

So um, maybe I need to go to a Beast fansign and see if he passes me his phone number with a note "do you believe in love at first sight?" attached to it HAHAHAHAHA /inside joke oops LOLOL

I don't need the gazes of all the other guys
(I only need you, only need you)
-- Boyfriend (SNSD)
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Don't look back at such a unfortunate person like me.
You don't even have to remember me, it's not like I left any traces.

-- Even If You Leave Me (2PM)

Yeah so I finally got around to looking up the translations for the songs in the Still 2:00PM album and gdi is this song heartbreaking ;____;
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Hiiii I'm back! So many things to talk about lol ;____; so um, met Joey at Parkway Mac's for lunch on Friday! Then we went over to Teoheng and sang for like 2 hours hahahaha. Then went over to her house, chucked my stuff, played with Sugar, then went off to Pastamania for dinner. Called Sihui to ask how to get to Bedok Reservoir from Tampines (lol), then took 22 over! Super crappy 2 hours + of waiting while I desperately needed to pee, and then it started. Which was only worse because the MCs were annoying as fuck and shrieking into the mic (like srsly though take a chill pill WE CAN HEAR YOU JFC) and the highlight was probably the stupid band singing a ridic song called Sex On Fire. Yeah. The lyrics were "this sex is on fire~" which was so stupid I died laughing lol!

U-Kiss appeared at around 9:30pm in awesome gorgeous mindblowing white suits and black ties and nnnnnnrgh so hot ;____; amazing hair for everyone (especially Kiseop bb since he put down his fringe cries) and for the first time I didn't have to focus on filming so I managed to do the fanchants which were super fun kekekeke~ Except that everyone was all pressed together all sweatily and stuff which was gross :(

After it ended we took a bus back to Bedok, attempted to find Sweet Talk but it disappeared, so we ended up going to Mac's to buy fries + drink + nuggets for Joey hahaha! Then went back to her house, Skyped Sarah etc etc lol. Went to sleep at like 2? :o then woke up at around 10:30, left the house at 11+ to go Tampines~ ate brunch at Cafe Cartel, then went to watch Harry Potter which was awesome except why were there so many H/Hr moments lol o_o Minor D/H moment during the snatching wand part which made me happy hahahaha they are so cute :')

Then went to get bubble tea + takopachi, met Angelique, went to Popular to get Boonsing's card, trained to work! Yesterday was my most awesome day everrrr (the previous time wasn't lor since I spilled the drink zzz) because awesome china guy partners were so fucking awesome idek ;_____; /touched lmaooo the only thing I did was get drinks for 4 tables? Except now I have a blister on my index finger from pouring too much tea LOL :\ but yeah :'D 

I haven't written anything in a month and I feel like dying but urgh writer's block :( it feels like constipation or something idk cries ;_____; okay off to watch Mary Stayed Out All Night \o/
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Okay long and ridiculous post so click the cut if you want to read lmao.

skinny boys vs buff boys; you already know my answer so yeah )

Okay I'm lazy and sleepy so this is the end lmao. Might continue some other time :o

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