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empireboysSchool is stupid I really need more than 6 hours' worth of sleep a day dammit and I am tired all the time and I am not exactly very nice when I am tired and I end up saying the wrong things but I am too tired to care or try to make things right again and I can only hope that people will forgive me and understand that I would never mean to hurt them.
Sometimes I don't really feel like myself sometimes I feel like someone else sometimes I push people away on purpose not only because I am afraid of getting hurt but because I do not want them to come too close only to be disappointed by what they find inside me. I am not whole I am broken I am fragile I have no room in my heart for anyone else and I am starting the long tedious process of forgiving and forgetting and this time round I have nothing left to give. I will not make the same mistakes again I am lonely loose listless lost I am a shell I am terrified; I want so much I don't deserve I want something I don't deserve I want to deserve to be happy.
Like I said, I need more sleep. I think. Sleep is always good.
Sometimes I don't really feel like myself sometimes I feel like someone else sometimes I push people away on purpose not only because I am afraid of getting hurt but because I do not want them to come too close only to be disappointed by what they find inside me. I am not whole I am broken I am fragile I have no room in my heart for anyone else and I am starting the long tedious process of forgiving and forgetting and this time round I have nothing left to give. I will not make the same mistakes again I am lonely loose listless lost I am a shell I am terrified; I want so much I don't deserve I want something I don't deserve I want to deserve to be happy.
Like I said, I need more sleep. I think. Sleep is always good.
