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That awkward moment when you're trying to do an econs essay question that doesn't even fucking make sense and you just don't know how you're supposed to do it when it doesn't make sense and your logic doesn't work in the face of a stupid subject like that and you're just so bloody scared of screwing up and failing that you burst into tears and you realise how stressed you've actually been under the surface.

But fuck promos are 24 days away and I am nowhere close to getting anything. I have no idea what the fuck is going on in math, I try for econs but sometimes everything just slips away from me, and history is hit and miss. Scared for lit because my expectations for myself are now sky-high and I don't want to crash and burn. Scared for GP because I want to do well badly. Terrified because I really don't want to fail, but somehow I just can't get myself into the mode for studying.

Urgh fuck I wish I actually had self-discipline.