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this is not a love story
Jul. 18th, 2011 08:34 pmDay Eight / I am starting to feel like I am going round and round in circles and getting absolutely nowhere
Past few days were alright, I guess. Managed to catch HP with Jieshi & Yingzhen on Sunday after a long round of Seoul Garden-ing :) had a lot of fun, yeah. Started crying when George said "you alright there Freddie?" and aufpoawuef ;_____; tiny!Lily & Snape were so bloody adorable! And of course: "After all this time?" / "Always" ♥
Got back everything today, and I suppose I'm fine with most of my results but still angry with myself over GP. Sigh I guess I have to stop being so overconfident that I'm gonna score even if I don't do anything :| so I suppose I should be thankful that this round of results took me down a notch, so I'll work harder for promos. But I'm pretty pleased that I didn't get anything below an E :D
It's my birthday the day after tomorrow. I don't know what I'm supposed to feel, but all I know is that I'm not quite sure if I'm ready to face up to what I promised myself yet, and I'm not quite sure if I really, you know, want to grow up. I learned a lot throughout my sixteenth year - fell out and in love, found out what it's like to put someone's wellbeing over your own, made the decision to do what was for the best although it certainly didn't feel good - and while it was fun and lovely at times, it was also terribly hard, and I don't know what I should expect for my seventeenth year. Seventeen feels incredibly old, like I'm supposed to be off defeating Dark wizards (lol) or living out some crazy love story or conquering the world. Instead I'm going to be studying, hahahaha.
~
It just came out I wasn't thinking I probably would take it back if I got a chance but still it happened:
Don't be a jerk, I said.
Sorry, you answered. I am and always will be.
And then you left.
~
有些爱
越想抽离却越更清晰
那最痛的距离
是你不在身边 却在我的心里
Past few days were alright, I guess. Managed to catch HP with Jieshi & Yingzhen on Sunday after a long round of Seoul Garden-ing :) had a lot of fun, yeah. Started crying when George said "you alright there Freddie?" and aufpoawuef ;_____; tiny!Lily & Snape were so bloody adorable! And of course: "After all this time?" / "Always" ♥
Got back everything today, and I suppose I'm fine with most of my results but still angry with myself over GP. Sigh I guess I have to stop being so overconfident that I'm gonna score even if I don't do anything :| so I suppose I should be thankful that this round of results took me down a notch, so I'll work harder for promos. But I'm pretty pleased that I didn't get anything below an E :D
It's my birthday the day after tomorrow. I don't know what I'm supposed to feel, but all I know is that I'm not quite sure if I'm ready to face up to what I promised myself yet, and I'm not quite sure if I really, you know, want to grow up. I learned a lot throughout my sixteenth year - fell out and in love, found out what it's like to put someone's wellbeing over your own, made the decision to do what was for the best although it certainly didn't feel good - and while it was fun and lovely at times, it was also terribly hard, and I don't know what I should expect for my seventeenth year. Seventeen feels incredibly old, like I'm supposed to be off defeating Dark wizards (lol) or living out some crazy love story or conquering the world. Instead I'm going to be studying, hahahaha.
~
It just came out I wasn't thinking I probably would take it back if I got a chance but still it happened:
Don't be a jerk, I said.
Sorry, you answered. I am and always will be.
And then you left.
~
有些爱
越想抽离却越更清晰
那最痛的距离
是你不在身边 却在我的心里
