don’t look back and leave, don’t look for me and live

You know, like Sean, I've always thought people who jumped from person to person calling each and every one of them special, claiming they were truly in love with every of them... well, ridiculous, really. Maybe it's because I don't fall for people easily, but I refuse to believe love comes that easily, or leaves equally easily, either.

Which is why I shall be patient and wait for love to come around. Maybe I'm supposed to be strong and brave and courageous enough to chase after what I really want, but hey, I've never been that kind of girl. And right now I'm tired and even though I'm sick of waiting, I think this time I'll wait around for someone to turn up and completely surprise me and make me see why it never worked out with anyone else.

So yes, I will just wait patiently for a guy to sweep me off my feet, to live up to all my hidden expectations and show me that fairytales really can come true sometimes. For someone meant for me and me alone, someone who has been waiting for me all his life the way I have been waiting for him. Someone who will do anything in his ability to turn up at my side if I need a hug. Someone whose world will revolve around me, someone who needs me as much as I need him, someone who will end all our arguments with a but I love you. Someone who will make every day a surprise. Someone who knows that I am a giddy romanticist at heart and I want my life to be a love story. Someone who will read up the translations of Beautiful and learn the lyrics and sing it to me while meaning every single word. Someone who will smile at me like he's never smiled at anyone else before. Someone who will make me smile like I've never smiled at anyone else before. Someone who will catch me before I leave, who has stars in his eyes, who will move heaven and earth for me. Someone who will fulfill all of these qualities and stun me and I will pull out this list again and be amazed that someone this perfect for me exists.

But right now, right now I shall just prove that I don't need a guy in my life to be happy. And that being alone beats being a slut, tyvm :)



Because I loved you
Because I have no regrets
Take away only the happy memories
I can stand it, I can endure it
Through this you have to be happy
Day by day, it fades away
-- Haru Haru (Big Bang)

with you here i bubble over, without you i only worry

All the time that has gone by
All the past memories that we shared
Please don’t forget them
-- Sunset Glow (Big Bang)

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Wasted $50 of buffet money on one piece of plain prata, one stick of satay, one bowl of chawanmushi, one bowl of ice kachang, and one scoop of chocolate ice cream. Yeah, I'm amazing, I know.

Spent my dinnertime reading my History + Econs notes, which is probably the reason why I had no appetite LOL. Plus the fact that I was busy laughing while Chubin whined to me about his Malaysian police fiasco while assuring me that he was really amazing and defiantly told them NO while giving a pissed off look (cannot imagine this btw, lmao) and anyway, he totally could have fought with them if they tried to do anything. While adding that he used to get into fights when he was in Sec 1. Like um, that totally proves how experienced you are, riiiiight ~_~

Oh look it's Saturday already. Which means JCTs are like, the day after tomorrow. Insane. I refuse to believe one month of holidays just went by like this wtf this cannot be. I need a bloody Time Turner. ...obviously so I can fast forward time to next Saturday where I'll be slacking my life away and staring at Hyunseung's gorgeousness and everything will be so much more amazing. No, I'm not crazy enough to want to restart the holidays so I can study properly. I'd probably waste it all away again anyway lolol.

Sigh. Gonna be a horrible person and pray to God that I'll at least do okay. I don't need good; I just don't want bad.

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“I think that we got so close, there was no choice but to tear ourselves away from each other. We’re too young and maybe one day, we’ll be perfect for each other again, and every mistake we ever made will let us fall into place with one another. Maybe one day we can do this again.”