and i wonder if i ever cross your mind / for me, it happens all the time

Tired of moodswinging. Tired of being sad then happy then sad then angry then hurt then not knowing what to feel anymore. Tired of caring when I said I wouldn't, trying when I said I wouldn't. Tired of that sense of guilt and helplessness when you don't know how to cheer people up. Tired of my friends being upset because they really, really deserve to be happy. Tired of school. Tired of homework. Tired of not knowing what is going through your mind. Tired of you. Tired of love. Tired of not knowing if I'm doing the right thing. Tired of knowing that I'd do it anyway even if I knew it was the wrong decision to make. Tired of wondering. Tired of feeling like a horrible person in general. Tired of exhaustion that has nothing to do with the amount of time I sleep. Tired of being scared all the damn time. Tired of my insecurities. Tired of myself. Tired of life in general, and I just really need a break :|